Tuesday, 7 August 2018


I'd like to start by saying THANK YOU for the overwhelming support that I received on my previous blog, my DKA story. The community Diabetesgeek has created has been phenomenal and I am so glad this platform enables me to share my experiences with people who are willing to listen and promote my voice.

It seems that this blog is reserved for big life events like starting an insulin pump, a hospital admission or diabetes burnout. This time is no different as I start university in September to study a career I am so very passionate about. My heart flutters at the thought of a new city to explore, a home to call my own with my partner and three years to delve into study and clinical placements.

Much like anything and everything in life, with increased independence comes increased responsibility. With time, increased responsibilities come with great consequences.

It is so much more than moving away from home, cross country. Dare I say it, this is more than missing my family or having to pay the bills.

It is inevitable that those issues will present themselves as time goes on but naturally, my healthcare is at the forefront of my mind. I have always been under the care of the same diabetes team- give or take the change from paediatrics to adults. Thus the thought of changing hospital and CCG care is so alien to me. Along with the stress of finding a new GP and pharmacy to register at so I can order and pick up my prescriptions. Having to get to know new health care professionals instead of trusting those who have treated me for my whole life. It seems a bit surreal. Perhaps this is the start of something bigger, to continue to shape the life that I want to lead. For now, it appears to be one big stress ball full of paperwork, signatures and big scary adult decisions.
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This is also my comfort zone and no one likes to leave their comfort zone. This city is all I have ever known, the same roads, routes and days-out. Although I do tend to flourish most when I am immersed in the deep end, whether that be unfamiliar places or events. I have my blog to thank for that new-found confidence. So whilst a new home is everything I have ever yearned for, now the time has come it makes you second guess yourself.

"A comfort zone is a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there.."

August has been my 'summer break'. I finished slightly later than my peers as I had to play catch up due to my admission in March. With great determination I have been lucky enough to clear time for a month of downtime with very little responsibilities. Something that will soon become harder to seek. To my surprise, I have found it quite the challenge to simply do nothing, which sounds ridiculous. Constant 'should I be doing something' swarms my head especially when I know how busy life is going to be come September.

And that's all for now really. I am currently dipping my toes into a device called the miaomiao, which is an add on to the freestyle libre. I am in the midst of trying to get the libre on prescription. I toyed with the idea of buying a Dexcom G6 but have recently put this fantasy on hold while I get my feet on the ground in the land of libre. My insulin pump is my best friend, it allows me to have such freedom. Of which only us type ones would understand and appreciate. It really is a fantastic piece of kit.

Going forward, I hope that the waves of change carry me gently and steer me toward my intended direction. I hope I will find quiet corners to continue to write on this space and to interact with you guys. As I mentioned earlier Diabetesgeek has allowed me to interact and meet the most wonderful people, all while simply being me and doing diabetes my way.

Thank you for reading.

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